I’m not sure everyone has this problem but it appears that I have an oversized ego. It is not that I flaunt it as much as that I feel it in my bones. I have a need to be right, to have things go my way, or to be critical of others that don’t operate in a way that I think they should. Typically there is nothing wrong with having a healthy ego because believing in one’s self can help us to become whole and complete, not lacking in anything. But from a spiritual prospective having a strong ego can seriously get in God’s way. This is why I personally pray that I become less of me so the Spirit can become more in me.
As you began to understand the ways of God more you began to care more about the needs of others. You desire to find ways to make things better for others and you genuinely want to see them do well. This is directly attributed to the Spirit of God becoming more active in you and therefore you are taking on more of the characteristics of God rather than that of the ego-self. Mind you the self thinks more of itself and wants to be elevated while the Spirit operates in ways that is more beneficial to all concerned. You can see how these two forces might collide with one another. If the two are to live in the same body one has to become submissive to the other or there will be a constant tug of war over the lead position. This is the internal battle one faces when the desire is to please God.
“For the flesh desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the flesh. They are in conflict with each other, so that you are not to do whatever you want.” Galatians 5:17
Perhaps what most do not realize is that we have dueling natures that pull us in different directions? We are both carnal and spiritual creatures. Our flesh desires things that are pleasing to our flesh while our spirit desires things that are pleasing to God, Father and Creator. The caretaker in the middle is the mind. It is through our minds that we make such decisions. Should we follow our sinful desires or should we follow what the Spirit desires? If you trust in the word of God scripture is clear:
“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is – his good, pleasing and perfect will.” Romans 12:2
So the question becomes, which nature do you wish to feed? The one that you feed the most is the one that will become your dominant nature. Since both cannot occupy the same space, again, one will have to submit so the other may become strong, therefore I pray to God, Father please make less of me so that I may have more of You.
In Apostle Paul’s letter to the Romans he urged them:
“Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God – this is your true proper worship.” 12:1
He also said:
“For the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the faith God has distributed to each of you.” 12:3
If we wish to be of service to God while living in this body of flesh something has to give. Not everyone knows God or even wants to become submissive to something other than themselves. That is the ego-self. However, once you get to know exactly who and what God is then most will see that you are not submitting to a mere person, or mere mortal, or anything of this earth. You are submitting to the Maker of all things in the heavens and upon earth. Therefore I gladly say, please Father, make there less of me and more of You, in me. Not everyone can see or say this, but those who belong to God see it no other way. Selah!